Our first together photo in Kenya. It all seems a bit surreal....Jeremiah and I have always dreamed of going to Africa and here we are. Alot of different things have been going through my head. As most of you know, I am a external processor, but most recently I started becoming a bit more discreet in sharing....well that is going out the window on this trip. We want you to be able to tangibly experience as much of this trip as you can through our honest outlooks. I reallllllly miss my kids and it didn't strike me until I left them, that its highly probable that I love them even more than I love God. I started going to the new testament where God talks about loving him more than we love our mother, father or child....daily taking up our cross. I realized that I have so much of my identity wrapped up in being a mother. I am a mother to Isaiah, Hadassah and Saraiah. Most of my time goes to taking care of these little ones. I am doing HIS job taking care of them, but at the same time....after arriving here in Kenya...I started really grieving being away from them. I started to realize last night while lying in bed that this may be what God feels like when we are "away" from him. Sometimes we take a step back out of busyness, or condemnation, or spending our time doing other things....and often he is calling after us to just "BE" with us. How I long for my children is how God longs for us.....his children. It really put it into perspective for me. I hope that I do not return from this trip going back to my children as my first love, but learning the art of worship through being with them. Being grateful for every moment, instead of losing my mind, and loving God so much that I am willing to take up my cross. I am also realizing that it is so very easy in Grand Rapids to forget there everywhere in the world are people that do not know him. Here I am half way across the world to share Jesus, when I have people in my own back yard. I am guilty of thinking everyone in GR knows him, and they don't. So here is my outloud, hope you keep my accountable confession.....I want to be a follower that does what God has asked us to...and that is to "GO and preach the gospel"....at all times....in actions and in truth. Please pray for our next few days here as we travel to the slums and spend days hanging with the kids of Nairobi. That is would be fruitful and that God would lead us. Love you all.
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